Thanksgiving is coming up and I find myself thinking a lot about gratitude.

As I say at the close of almost every yoga class I teach, “There is so much to be grateful for”. It’s true. I am grateful for my husband. I am grateful for my cats, even when they annoy me, usually by wanting to snuggle when I need to work. I am grateful for my friends. I am grateful for the mint plant in my office, and the fact that I’m finally managing to keep some sort of plant matter alive in there. I am grateful that Gateway sent back my computer in working order, so I have my own personal laptop back.

Still, there are some things I know I should be grateful for, but I can’t quite get there in my heart. I know I should be grateful for my health, but in my heart I am pissed off that I haven’t been taking better care of myself. The truth is, I am still having trouble finding the balance in my life, and the things that slip are still the things that feel like they should float to the top of my list. Like taking care of myself, and staying connected to friends, both of which I’ve done a miserable job of the last six months.

I am grateful to have a couple of extra days off coming up next week. Now my challenge is to keep from being so tired and pissed off that I waste them. Wish me luck!